its weird i can’t get out of this rut and what scares me is that i don’t know if i will. every single track race since i got injured freshmen year has gone the exact same way. i go out fine and then i get to that spot that hurts and it’s just over when it shouldn’t be. the pathetic part in all of this is that i know what’s wrong, what i have to fix, and each week ends up with the same result. and i get frustrated in how i did and myself. i see my teammates get better and people that should be worse than me improving and now they are better. it’s depressing. sometimes i feel bad but than i realize its all my own fault and i’m the problem. i want to fix it so bad. but i always lose track (no pun intended) of what i have to do and come race day its over. i want my heart and soul to be in it. and just have one good race. because if i do then everything will change and i will love the sport again like i did.